Hello!

I really wanted to delete the last post. Full of crap and petty rants. LOL

Ok, I shan't delete it so I can look back again and laugh at how stupid I am.

I think I'm going abit bonkers. LOLOL !

Ok, this is going to be a (super duper) random and short post.

So, about 1am on a random night, I smsed wenkai,
and the convo: --

Me : How You find minghui?

Wen Kai : Cute, but he abit too shy

Me : YAH!! Cute right ! >< I want him to be my brother, so kawaii

Wen Kai : Go sleep early , you can go dream about it. 

Me to myself. ASSHOLE. 

Ikr._. Super lame , random and short post by me huh! 

-Loves, Daphnne

I know it sounds stupid, but I feel that my hair is healthier now. 

I didn't want for this haircut to be made for like, the rest of my life. 

Uber long hair was something I had always wanted. Always. 

But my hair ends were disappointingly unhealthy, with split ends and the texture like touching hay. 

God knows how many nights I spent awake in bed cutting my split ends.

I dreaded the thought of going to have my hair cut thou, (even thou I knew my hair was unhealthy) 

I didn't want any weird aunties touching my hair and yanking / pulling away with it. 

Most importantly, I couldn't part with THE LENGTH.

Got convinced by my mom (and Saph) last night to have a haircut

Saph even promised to cut her hair with me !!  

Even thou she has amazingly long gorgeous and healthy hair. 

Since Saph wouldn't mind parting with her hair (which seriously don't need any cutting) 

I wouldn't want to be so sore about it either. 

Either way, I'm still having heartaches over the length. ): 

I hate how clueless and oblivious I am to myself.

I hate that I always listen and respects others decisions that I never ever had time to listen to my own heart. 

And then, I realised that I have no one to blame

Because, my heart didn't know what is the best for myself. 

No one is irreplaceable.

That's what you said, and I agreed.

But can another being completely take over someone else and (maybe) do a better job then the previous?

I don't know. 

Because, the day you poisoned their brains 

and I left. 

They have already had enough of you. 

Who do you think you are? 

Barge in , and (naively) think you can replace me? 

Daphnne?? ME?? 

JOKE.

No, I have seen clearly.

The day I left, was the day I see the whole picture.

As the Chinese idiom says ,

当局者迷，当众者清。

(Meaning, when being in the situation, you're blinded. but as an observer, you're clearer to whats going on)

Now i see how manipulative, self-centered, and sore you are. 

Me and lincoln, we were all blinded by your lies. 

You tried to chase our leader, Shin . 

And , when you failed to do so, you targeted shin's "pillars" .

Me and Lincoln.

Well, we've left, but you still can't take our places. 

You can never be us. 

You will never be as important as us in the family. 

You will never be , and can never be just like us, or even better.

and although I've left , 

On behalf of Effusive, 

GTFO >!

My handphone just died out on me , why?

Everyone in ICB, are just my classmates.
"Friends" is too strong a word to be used. It is, after all, too fake too.
realized that the only ones who can crack me up are the ones in secondary school .

I don't ask for friends in ICB.
But I don't wish to be labeled as the emo low self esteem girl who doesn't want to make friends with anyone.
I haven't found someone in ICB who has things I can share with. Yet.
But I do not doubt my ability in making friends nor my self-esteem.

every word you used against me doesn't prove you any right.
it just shows how human always pass judgments only after knowing someone for a few weeks. 
It is human nature. And it is so sad everyday for me, looking at people like you who think you know me.