personal info
I'm a girl who still hasn't figured out what she wants to do with her life.

My birthday falls on the 18th Of April every single year since 1993. You do the maths.

✓ Lose weight
✓ Start sleeping early
✓ Finish my studies well
✓ Get a rich boyfriend
✓ Figure out what I want to do with my life


Keep reading if you like to hear people ranting.

Archives
May 2011 / June 2011 / July 2011 / August 2011 / September 2011 / October 2011 / November 2011 / December 2011 / January 2012 / February 2012 / March 2012 / April 2012 / May 2012 / June 2012 / July 2012 / August 2012 / September 2012 / October 2012 / November 2012 / December 2012 / January 2013 / February 2013 / March 2013 / April 2013 / May 2013 / June 2013 / January 2014 / February 2014 / April 2014 / May 2014 / June 2014 / July 2014 / August 2014 / October 2014 / December 2014 / January 2015 / March 2015 / April 2015 / May 2015 / June 2015 / July 2015 / October 2015 / November 2015 / December 2015 / February 2016 / March 2016 / April 2016 / May 2016 / July 2016 / January 2017 / February 2017 / March 2017 / June 2017 / August 2017 / December 2017 / January 2018 / April 2018 / July 2018 / October 2018 / August 2019 / October 2019 / April 2020 /

Wonderful
Saturday, April 30, 2016,
I had a weird ass dream again.

This time I dreamt that I was PREGNANT

First things first. I have been single ALL. MY. LIFE. 
it just kinda means I cannot remember the last time I fell in love or being in a relationship.

ANYWAY- There is no way single me of 6 ~ 7 years could even be freaking pregnant.
I don't even plan on ever settling down or having children for christ's sake !!!
So I searched up what the hell it means for that kind of weird ass dream.

What do dreams about being pregnant mean? 
“At its core, this dream is about creativity,” Mead says. “Women literally create new life out of their bodies. If you dream of being pregnant, you are likely craving time to be creative, or ‘dreaming up’ a new and exciting creative project that will come into existence down the line. This could be as small as a home-based renovation project or a large-scale artistic work.”

What can I learn about myself from dreaming about being pregnant?
“Pregnancy dreams are often multi-layered and speak about something inside — represented by the fetus — that has not yet been acknowledged or presented to the world,” Mead says. “I find that people who have disowned goals and desires often dream of pregnancies. For example, someone who might have wanted to act, but chose the safe path of being a lawyer, may be plagued with pregnancy dreams until he or she takes steps to at least connect with that earlier passion.”

Anyway, I think it meant me challenging myself at a new work place and being out of my comfort zone -not being restricted in doing what I can do best.

Good dreams and a good way to end my time in my old work place :D
I know I shouldnt, but my blog became twitter
Friday, April 29, 2016,


 If you are neutral in situations of injustice, you have chosen the side of the oppressor.

Nightmares?
Thursday, April 28, 2016,
So I dreamt that I “murdered” someone, someone whom I do not recognise - a total stranger - I was dreaming I was going out with my ITE fren which I havent spoken to or communicated with ever since I quit school 3 years ago.

So we were in my old house, and we were hurrying to leave the flat. While waiting for the lift we saw my current boss and i dn know why but it seems like we were hurrying away from him. We reached the third floor where a woman came in and started hitting on us. We wanted to leave at the third floor right then and there, but she kept following us and being super persistent. In the ensuing struggle, my friend fell off from the third story, and I killed the woman with my own bare hands, i dont remember how but its like just hitting her with my fists.

I went to the first floor to find lots of people looking at the place my friend would have fallen on but shes nowhere to be seen. Then she appears behind me and I was telling her what to say if ever there was an investigation and she assured me that things will be alright. And then, I woke up…. Disturbing dream..

I googled what it means (some points highlighted at what i might be currently facing now) 
1. HATE - do you hate someone??
2. REVENGE Is someone out for revenge?
 3. STRONG FEELINGS Killing is associated with strong feelings and if you have been thinking about something which you find completely unacceptable then your killing dream maybe linked to that.
 4. END A RELATIONSHIP Dreams use strong metaphors. Have you just “killed off” a relationship.
 5. RESIST Are you intent on resisting something? Your strong will to resist may be spilling over into a dream.
 6. PROTECTING SOMEONE Have you been worried about someone who needs protecting? Your dream may show how worried you are.
 7. RISKY BEHAVIOUR Where you in a risky situation yesterday? Your dream may be a warning to keep things more under control.
 8. ACT RUTHLESSLY Killing is the ultimate example of ruthless behaviour. A killing dream may simply represent this need to be ruthless.
 9. OVERCOME OPPOSITION 
 10. UNCARING A killing dream may be your minds way of saying you have been uncaring recently. The dream may be drawing attention to your ruthless and cold hearted nature right now.
 11. INTENSE ARGUMENT People who kill may be doing so as a result of intense arguments. Your killing dream may hint at the level of intensity of an argument.
 12. PRESSURED
 13. OVERCOME PROBLEMS Killing dreams hint at intense situations. If you have been trying to overcome serious problems then the intensity of your dream may hint at how you are having to push yourself to the limits.
 14. BREAKING FREE Are you wanting to break free of someone or some situation? If so then the killing hints at how difficult this is proving. The dream doesn’t mean you will kill someone it just means that the situation is intense and difficult (as difficult as a situation where you might kill or be killed).
 15. INSECURITIES 
 16. CONFRONTATION Killing links to confrontation.

A dream often uses extreme metaphors. A killing dream maybe your minds way of saying how confrontational you or others have been.

There are a few points that do matches my feeling as I just recently resigned and took a step into the unknown. I am not happy with my current boss but I dont dislike him .. Im probably feeling insecure about my own future and felt that I’m killing off my future?? Im not sure… All I know is i must try to get some shut eye before work.
random thoughts
Friday, April 22, 2016,



漂亮不是从天而降的,是自己内心散发出来的,人品好,没有坏念头,没有小人之心,自然而然就是美丽的。

Happy 23rd Birthday
Monday, April 18, 2016,


Happy Birthday to me :D 

« older entriestoprecent entries »