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I'm a girl who still hasn't figured out what she wants to do with her life.

My birthday falls on the 18th Of April every single year since 1993. You do the maths.

✓ Lose weight
✓ Start sleeping early
✓ Finish my studies well
✓ Get a rich boyfriend
✓ Figure out what I want to do with my life


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The Creatures
Thursday, August 28, 2014,

http://www.thedenverchannel.com/news/local-news/parents-warned-of-active-shooter-near-broadway-and-mineral

I was absolutely heart broken after I heard about what happened to The Creatures today, more specifically KOOTRA. To think that someone would actually do that to him. CALL SWAT ON HIM. MAKE HIM SEEM LIKE HE DID SOMETHING SO REVOLTING. NEARLY GET HIM KILLED.
I look up to those guys, I fucking love Kootra. They make me smile when I can’t do it on my own, they are there for me when I need it most. I NEED THEM. THEY SAVED ME FROM MYSELF. And to hear that someone, would be so fucking stupid and disgusting to put all of their information online, call their fan base faggots (im losing it ok) and tell them to KYS, THEN PROCEED TO CALL THE POLICE, PRETENDING TO BE DAN’S BROTHER AND PLANT THE ACT ON THEM. THIS DIDN’T JUST AFFECT THEM. THIS AFFECTED SO MANY PEOPLE. Their fucking office is out on the news now, they might have to switch offices, imagine how much shit they are going through right now. How stressful it is already being a group and then GETTING FUCKING SWATTED??
WHY SWAT THEM IN THE FIRST PLACE?? What the fuck did they do to you to make you hoax a shooting and plant it on Jordan. They are such good people, they make us smile, laugh, feel BETTER ABOUT OURSELVES. THEY FUCKING RAISED MORE THAT $20K FOR A CHARITY NOT TO LONG AGO AS WELL. WHAT DID THEY DO WRONG?? They threatened to call SWAT on James too, which I doubt will happen since the two people who did the act were found and got in major trouble. the information online was also identified as FAKE by Spencer. 
One mistake could’ve happened and Kootra and/or Dan could’ve been shot dead. ONE MISTAKE. James fucking drove all the way to the office to make sure they were ok, Aleks was worried someone would get fucking shot. The fanbase is practically shaking right now. MONICA IS FOR SURE IN TEARS. 
Jordan isn’t just a gamer, he is a person, A REAL PERSON, with a REAL LIFE OUTSIDE OF YOUTUBE. He has a wife he wants to go home to everyday, friends he loves working with and playing with, a FAMILY WHO IS PROBABLY SO FUCKING WORRIED. 
For crying out loud, Max (GassyMexican), despite the tension with him, Kootra and Dan, was worried shitless and cared. 
The fact that this actually happened just rattles me,  I look up to these people and I keep them close to my heart. Very close. 
This isn’t a video game guys, this is real life, we could’ve lost two Creatures today if one wrong move was made. Thank goodness those two are professional and civil. Never in my life would I think they would get thrown onto the ground, arrested, and get an assault rifle pointed at their faces. 
Two fucking idiots thought it was funny to hoax a call about a shooting, hoaxing a call about a shooting in general shouldn’t be a fucking joke either, considering the fact that CO is pretty up there with shooting. 
I really hope everything gets better. All Kootra wanted to do was have fun, stream for us, smile and laugh, play a game. He didn’t do anything wrong. 
Thank God both Dan and him are ok. I don’t blame the Creatures if they can’t or do not want to post any content or stream. Completely understandable 
Rant/cry is over for now. Thank you
Five night at Freddy's
Monday, August 25, 2014,
Hello! Today I'm here to update about this new game, called "Five Nights at Freddy's" 

Its a horror game and was dubbed the "Most Horrifying Game Of 2014" , maybe I'll update pictures later since I'm currently in mobile...

Basically, you are a security guard hired to keep a lookout for this restaurants machine mascot. In the morning, the machine are controlled and recognizes humans. But by night, it will be put in free roam mode and it will not recognize you as a human, but an endoskeleton. Which means a skeleton without a suit. (Which they have) so they will try to stuff you into one. And remember! They are machine so stuffing you into one would probably kill u with all the wires and everything inside!

You just sit in the office. (Fucking creepy office) , holds up a camera every now and then checking where they are. And if they are at your door, you have to close it (two doors left and right)  to prevent tem from coming in and killing you. If they do come in, the way you dare is by jump scares. So you understand how scary this will be right x.x 

Anyway, my brother introduced the game to me, and I havent played it and will probably never play it at all. But I've seen markiplier's walkthrough and UberHaxorNova playing it. I have been having nightsmares over this game. Its the 2nd night now and my sister is home from her boyfriends house but I still can't sleep. 

My brother says some people are scared of the animatronic. But I'm more disturbed by the fact that you look at those monitor screens and they are staring back at you with a smile. Or when you check the monitor you can see one of them running down the hallway towards you to kill you. 

When I'm in bed, I keep looking at the empty space from my bed to my closet coz it feels like they are standing there looking at me. And of course I KNOW they aren't there but I keep checking to make sure. To tell myself see, they aren't there. And I'm not watching any walkthrough for the time being to keep myself away from the game and nightmares... 

I just wanted to write about it. So Maybe if I did, I will forget about it sooner? Or put it down away in my heart.
Painkillers
Sunday, August 17, 2014,
I'm heavily relying on painkillers. Every time I try not to eat painkillers and drink / eat something my throat gets super painful. it's so painful that whenever I try to swallow my saliva, it actually stops before it go down the throat, and I have to take another slow deliberate swallow which always comes with great pain. I sat awake last night at 4am clutching the last packet of painkillers having a slight panic attack. Wonder if I can buy more of these stuff and wonder if I had taken too much painkillers for the day...
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