There are some days. . .
Hopefully a day will come when I am truthfully , really proud of myself and my achievements..
Someday. .
Someday. .
ILOVEYOU.
When over and over that's what everyone says.
But when all the sweet lies fade away, and we set foot on the stinky reality.
The words were forgotten, promises made, broken.
Where is that trust, love and harmony anymore?
And then, blinded by another truth,
We fail to see, we fail to love.
We thought we loved but we're less than capable of it..
And people always wonder why I'm single,
with couples all around me breaking up..
I'm afraid of love, aren't you?
with couples all around me breaking up..
I'm afraid of love, aren't you?
Wassup ?
Ok, for those who are like, wondering what's up with my life right now..
I lied, I quit schooling.
So , uhm, many people did came up and tell me that I was like, in the best course in ITE.
So , uhm, many people did came up and tell me that I was like, in the best course in ITE.
But the best may not be the best for me.
I rest my case.
And today, there was this audition competition.. (for ITE central)
So i was in it ,
And by luck , I got 2nd.
I mean, I couldn't believe it. But I did it !
I love you audi -faints-
I love you audi -faints-
So yea. here's what I won..
So i got this really cute couple cushion..
And this audi lanyard..
Actually , I really like this lanyard,
because me and Dalston have exactly the same outfits in audition . (Excluding the guitar)
we used them as reference for our couple tee,
and this lanyard was like "specially made" for me (:
because me and Dalston have exactly the same outfits in audition . (Excluding the guitar)
we used them as reference for our couple tee,
and this lanyard was like "specially made" for me (:
Audition Handphone Keychain (:
But it's not gona replace my current Big bang's TOP keychain . haha.
And finally, the couple tee.
Yea, I don't see whats special anyway,
because it's to precious to give it to anyone, or even to my boyfriend.
So I guess I'll just frame it up.
Keep it as a memory, etc. (:
Keep it as a memory, etc. (:
ILOVEAUDITION!!!!!!!!!!
Oh, have I mentioned it already??
ILOVEAUDITION
ILOVEAUDITION
ILOVEAUDITION
ILOVEAUDITION
ILOVEAUDITION
ILOVEAUDITION
ILOVEAUDITION
hahaha.
Oh, have I mentioned it already??
ILOVEAUDITION
ILOVEAUDITION
ILOVEAUDITION
ILOVEAUDITION
ILOVEAUDITION
ILOVEAUDITION
ILOVEAUDITION
hahaha.
Regardless.
You know something's wrong when everything anyone do to you feels negative..
Even when people genuinely cares, you just don't. Feel. It.
It's like cutting off from the world not believing in yourself and your own worth.
Nothing anyone say can make you feel alrite..
I hate going to school.
I hate my class.
I hate to see the queer stares from my classmates.
I hate to be alone.
I hate that I can't do nothing about the shit.
I hate you.
Never felt as shit as I ever did right now. Thanks huh.
You give me butterflies,
All right then,
a long time since I've blogged ,
as in really typing something instead of ripping it off my tumblr.
Those who really really know what is happening in my life right now,
yea, I'm so totally screwed.
And I don't know how to help myself this time.
I always hated it when someone gives me the loathsome answer "I don't know"
And I have used too much of it these days.
That I don't even know what is right anymore.....
Screw my life , alrites?
Tell me sweet little lies.
The rule is: everyone is a liar until proven honest. Lying is bad. Or so we’re told. Constantly, from birth.
“Honesty is the best policy.” “The truth shall set you free.” “I chopped down the cherry tree.” Whatever.
The fact is, lying is a necessity. We lie to ourselves because the truth freaking hurts.
No matter how hard we try to ignore it or deny it, eventually the lies fall away, whether we like it or not.
But here’s the truth about the truth: It hurts. So… we lie.
不喊痛，不代表不痛；不說，不代表不在乎
有時候....就是因為真的痛、真的在乎.....才更加沉默。