So glad you're finally fessin' up. But a small part of me is disappointed, in you or myself , i don't know. I actually need to resort to insults and bloody hurtful comments before you told me your problems.

So I actually failed to give you a feeling that you can talk to me about anything? Your problems, worries etc. Am I that kind of person who would only be there in your most glory days? We are a fam, just like in a family. No one gets left behind no one gets left out. But you not sharing your problems with us, doesn't make us any closer .
I don't know if this shows the beginning of something more, or the end of our friendship. Because obviously you don't trust me enough to tell me anything at all. The more things I uncover, the more distance growing in between us. I'm even wondering which is true to you at all? Don't I doing something prove anything of my friendship to you? Or do you think that I am just doing it for my own benefit? I just know that I'm not good enough for you to trust me with your problems.. Putting things inside your heart and not letting people know, what are you thinking? Do you seriously think that this is going to keep the fam going, or rather, our friendship?

I know when Shell / whoever asks me not to probe. Maybe they know long ago how our friendship was. Maybe they already know how I was the only one who thought that our friendship was more, enough to share our problems . When in fact, it is nothing like that at all. To you, I am just another girl who will only stick by you when you've done something good? When you're in your best ? Do I feel that way to you? That I will betray you once you fall , betray you once you are no longer of use? Wow, now I'm really upset.

For some other reason, I probably know you're hiding things. But talking to you nicely wouldn't work, so i actually had to be a bitch before you will tell me your problems thus proving you right that I'm a fair weathered friend? Or it never once crossed your mind that you could rely on me?

Knowing these kinda stopped our friendship, I don't know what more am I to you. I never once thought our friendship would be this dense. But it seems like it to you.

Well, forget it, I have always been misunderstood since young. And as I've always said. Real friends don't need an explanation, those that aren't friends will not accept your explanation. I don't feel like friends anymore.... I don't know this feeling inside me. It's like.... I guess I just thought too highly of myself. Maybe I don't even come close to the "f" letter in friends, even thou I thought I was something more.

You know what? forget it, lets just be normal same fam auditioner. Nothing more and nothing less. I shall not participate in anything within the fam. Or maybe, it's time for me to stop playing these useless online games anymore. 

(Y)! , although we, singaporeans, english fail, but please don't degrade ourselves any further. -.-