"Pain is a part of life. Sometimes it’s a big part, and sometimes it isn’t, but either way, it’s a part of the big puzzle, the deep music, the great game. Pain does two things: It teaches you, tells you that you’re alive. Then it passes away and leaves you changed. It leaves you wiser, sometimes. Sometimes it leaves you stronger. Either way, pain leaves its mark, and everything important that will ever happen to you in life is going to involve it in one degree or another." - Jim Butcher

I miss the days where I don't feel overly concerned over what I post on my blog, or anywhere online publicly for that matter. Having a blog and writing daily entries in it is, in essence, baring yourself naked for the world to see. The vulnerability will be there. It makes everything even more fearful when you realize anyone who cares will be able to see inside your heart.

My granny was hospitalized again..
Only did my eye makeup for today before visiting her.
Because my contact lens are Hanabi Red which is striking enough, I decided to not overdo my eye makeup and chose nude eyeshadow today.

Most probably will wear my makeup like this for most of my holidays. :D

2nd post today. Scroll down to see the pretty headers I made for Twitter !

Yesterday, I went to meet Angellina & Karisse to collect my contact lens.
I got Hanabi Red and Rose Grey.
Rose series is the same as Luxury Batch 35.
The Hanabi and Rose series are under "I.Fairy Lens".
Apart from that, there are many other series of lens available,


I wanted to get pink contacts lately, but a lot of people say it will look brown because of our natural dark iris colour..
So I got Hanabi Red instead. My bff got Hanabi pink.


So this is my eyes with Hanabi Red contacts.


This is le bff's eyes with her Hanabi Pink contacts.


How I look with the contacts.

Here are some twitter headers I did.

Do not take anything out w/o letting me know.

a side note before reading the fan account, AJ is already back in Korea with U-kiss promoting their latest single "Standing Still" in their 3rd full length album "Collage". I am shipping it at my blogshop . Do support U-kiss , I don't think they should always win, but they deserve to win at least once. I will update more about their new album tomorrow ! ^^

TRUE STORY / MEETING AJ

Date: October 4, 2012
Location: New York, New York
Event: None. Was just waiting for my friend for dinner.

So it was a random Thursday night and I had dinner plans with a friend. We were going to check out this Korean restaurant my Korean teacher recommended to me. My friend was working late, so I ended up just walking around K-Town to wait. As I was walking a guy nearly bumped into me so I looked up to see him smile and walk past me.

Inner thought: Wait… that… was that… Was that AJ from U-Kiss? …. He IS studying @ Columbia University right now…. it might be… but maybe it isn’t.

I decided to test my luck and approach him as he was by himself checking out a restaurant menu.

Me: *shyly… Hi…uhm… would you happen to be AJ?
He turned around, looked at me and said…
AJ: Maybe… ?
Me: Oh, I meant, are you AJ from U-Kiss?
AJ: … Maybe… ?
Me: *laughed at his playful response* Oh. Well… if you are, I just wanted to say hello. I’m a big fan and I saw your performance last year in LA @ KMF. ^__^
AJ: Wow, you know us? How?
Me: Yeah, I’ve been listening to KPop for a while now and so I know you guys and your music is really great!
AJ: Wow! Thank you! How long have you been a fan (of kpop)? Do your friends listen also?
Me: Hmm… I’d say a long time now, maybe since 2008? But before then I use to follow groups like 1TYM and Shinhwa. And yes, my friends listen to kpop also and they know you too!
AJ: Wow. That’s so cool.
Me: Yeah, so… Uhm… what are you doing here?
AJ: Oh, Well… I miss home (Korea) and I miss Korean food…(this was my “awww! moment”) so I came here… *gazes at the menu… then returns his attention to me* What are you doing here?
Me: Me? Oh…uhm… waiting for a friend. We’re suppose to have dinner nearby.
AJ: That’s cool. Are you a student?
Me: Oh… no, hehe I’m working now.
AJ: Oh what do you do?
Me: Uhmmm banking.
AJ: Wow, that’s a lot of work then. Your hours must be long huh?
Me: Yeah… I mean, it’s not bad. Only sometimes. How about you? You’re attending Columbia University now right?
AJ: Yeah, I’m studying. But I’m not sure what I want to do after.
Me: What do you mean? After you graduate or do you mean with U-Kiss?
AJ: Yeah, like after I graduate and with U-Kiss. I’m interested in a lot of things right now and unsure what I want to do exactly.
Me: That’s okay. That’s what college is for. You’ll figure it out as you go along. ^_^* Plus you’re really smart and talented, so you have nothing to worry about.
AJ: Aw, thank you. That means a lot! … so have you been in New York long?
Me: *giggles* Yes, I was born and raised here. I’m a native New Yorker.
AJ: Oh wow! I haven’t met a native New Yorker yet.
Me: Nice to meet you then! lol, if you need anyone to recommend places to you, you can let me know. ^^*
AJ: Ah that would be amazing, but I don’t have time w/ school now. My schedule is really tight and the courses are really difficult.
Me: Yeah, but you’re smart, so it’s kay.
AJ: No… I’m not smart, I’m just really hard working.
Me: I think you’ll do really well with whatever you choose to do. Don’t worry so much. Are you enjoying New York so far?
AJ: Yes, I am! Although, I haven’t had much time sight see yet.
Me: Ah, hopefully you’ll have time after finals.
AJ: Yeah… hopefully.
Me: Well, I don’t want to take away your time. It was nice to meet you and talk to you!!!
AJ: Oh, yes same here! Wait… what was your name?
Me: Oh yeah, Jackie.
AJ: Nice to meet you, Jackie *reaches hand out for a handshake*
Me: *Smiles and shakes his hand. *I was Just about to walk away…then…
Me: Oh! Would it be okay if we took a picture together?
AJ: Of course!
Me: *after photo* Thank you! I hope you have a great time here and good luck with your finals!!!

… I know somewhere in that convo we talked about school, the future, and different paths AJ could take…but I don’t remember the exact details of the convo. So I just left it as this. I definitely spoke to him for quite a while and i didn’t realize how much time passed.

AJ is very smart and very kind in person. He was also really normal. I’m happy I had the opportunity to chat with him on the off chance that I was waiting for my friend. ^__^*

I think this was the first IDOL encounter where I felt the most normal before/during/and after also. lol, I don’t know how I was able to keep my composure. Seriously, he is an incredible person. AJ, I hope you do well in the future! Fightingggg!!!

PS - This encounter was SO much easier b/c AJ was able to communicate in English with me. lol. all my other fan encounters were difficult since I have the Korean knowledge of a 4yr old. IF that! OTL…


(Cr: to the person who wrote this).