You know, whenever I start to blog or try to talk about things on my mind, I always talk in puzzles or in jumbles because you never know who might be reading your blog, right? So anyway, I decided to turn anonymous because the internet is a scary place and you never know who is upset at what you say or do, therefore I have decided to draft all 200 of my posts since 2012 and I also have another blog which I had 500+ posts but it is on private because iie uSed tuu bloq liekk thizz. (*I used to blog like this) .. 

I may share some posts from my old teenaged blog because I was hilarious as in stupidly hilarious and bimbotic. We can pretend we stumbled on a stupid teenager's blog.

I never thought that I needed to censor my words because I felt that everything as long as communicated, can be solved. Right?

Wrong.

Every since I started working, I realised that you cannot just say something thoughtlessly because people can misinterpret it in many different ways and they can twist and spread whatever you say into something else.

Well, maybe if you watched meangirls, you would have known. But experiencing it first-hand is still somewhat of a shock man! I don't mean I went full out Plastic and had the whole Cady experience. But it's some sort of the things I said, wasn't meant to be hurtful or spiteful, but having it thrown back at you with someone's else interpretation makes me realized that?

Speaking of mean girls. Have anyone been playing Mean Girls, Sorority Rush on Episodes?
The decision to do shit stuff was taken right out of our choices and the character ends up doing shitty stuff and again wants another chance because " I didn't mean it" and "I feel so bad about it" ..
Fuck off ! So what if you felt bad, just because you felt bad, you should guilt people into forgiving you ? Then how about they throw it in your face all the mistakes you did then and keep guilt-tripping you to feel guilty?!

I know this is irrelevant but I just spend like $20 on that stupid game and I didn't expect it to turn out so shitty. Plus, the premium dresses are actually uglier than the non-premium one. FML.

But I digress.

So after 2 years of retails and 4 years in the tourism industry, you'd think I'd have wise up by now?

Wrong again. 

There will always be "cliques" in the office. The group that the boss like and consist of some bootlickers and the group that do stuff their way, doesn't care to sweet talk the boss.
Now if you're someone who doesn't wish to have drama, you would hang out with the ones who doesn't involve themselves in drama, right?

So I did just that but guess what? They are also sometimes full of crap, because they are also selfish and only do things their way. So you become neutral and both sides do not trust you to tell you anything and if anything happens both side wouldn't be bothered to help you but because you are neutral, you have to help both sides if they ask for help.

Sucks ain't it?

So I am doing sales and operations. So naturally the other sales have some problem with me. Which personally I do not give two fucks about.
I learn how to do operations because I am nice like that. I do my own stuff so I don't throw everything to the one operation colleague we have.
Not to mention the 2 sales does not like her. Lets call her S. But maybe because they never done operations before therefore, they think S is doing easy work and hence they have conflicts with each other.

For me, I prefer to do everything myself so I know what I am doing what should be changed etc. Turns out after learning the operations from S, she throws all the operations to me! Orders me around like I am under her. What the shit right? I know I am very young and younger than everyone in the office. But whenever I mention to her that she does operations, not me. She will tell me she only was hired to do boss's operations not that other sales. Like, FUCK U SMHH !!! 

Well, bitch -.-'' I am hired to do sales & operations, as in my own operations. Not to be your sidekick!!! I mean, I try so hard to be neutral but people just crawl all over you and eat you up just because you are easy. I hate it!!! I hate it so much!

but if I don't do it, and throw the operations back to the sales, they are going to be unhappy again and I will have offend both sides.

Tell me what should I do? Please leave a comment. and let me know. please I need help!!